LOL! Yeah, I can understand your reaction -- I hated that certain characters were killed off, and the ending freaked me out. I couldn't decide if it was amazingly profound or a complete cop-out. On the other hand, I enjoyed/was fascinated by the world he created, enough so that I've re-read the series three times so far and will probably read it a few more. I feel like there's more there every time I go back to it. I keep hoping one of these times I'll "get" the ending :D